nothing much - count your blessings

I feel like I should post something, but nothing profound or funny or insightful is going on in my brain right now. I am sitting at our kitchen table, Lucy behind the screen, looking out over the back yard with my morning coffee on a Saturday. Isn't that quite a story in itself? And I just saw a hummingbird getting nectar from the lavender and hosta flowers.

I had been feeling a bit  down lately (see previous post) but I think I'm out of that dip now. I just temporarily forgot how to handle the stress and how to count my blessings. That was my oma Margje's favorite hymn - Count your blessings. I would do well to remember that.

Now the scene outside has changed : I see Gus stalking a huge butterfly. My love draining the rainwater from the camping chairs- the young adults had a campfire last night.

At work, I am spending a bit of time with someone who can see the positive in almost any situation, an excellent example to follow.

So my traveling brain was longing for the pacific coast (northern part) and at the same time I am consciously noticing what I can enjoy at home.

Ah, the youth is waking up. Good thing I made a large pot of coffee. Let's see what the day brings.

the head and the heart

both feel a little heavy today. I haven't slept well the past nights, that doesn't help. And some days/weeks, my job gets to me (more than other times). Hence the nights, I suspect.

I find it difficult to turn my mind away from thoughts about all the 'things' I could not 'fix'. People I could not help. The magic wand I do not have. That's a whole lot of negative.

Not that it helps one bit to dwell on that- and I do notice the positive and the beauty, but the balance is just not tipping to the bright side. Even though I did spend a fun day with Vera yesterday. And I have plenty of enjoyables in my life. But it's not about me.

I have another day before the workweek starts again. Maybe time will turn this heaviness away, that and some stitching on the quilt perhaps?

lazy days in (mid) July....

Not quite mid July yet. No matter. I've been away for a while and my sense of time is skewed as it is. Summer is summer!

I was fortunate to be able to attend a national conference pertaining to the population I work with. Incredibly inspiring.  I pledge to make an attempt to apply all that I learned. My head and my heart are still full and this will take some processing.

I was gone for a week, and my love worked up a sweat to prepare a surprise for me upon return: one of the shrubberies that was blocking my view of the yard (in my opinion, not his!) is now in pieces in the trashcan and instead we have flowers!

The fourth of July was celebrated and brought to me my 'oldest' daughter ;-) Vera. She is going to stay for a week! My brother asked me today if I suffer from 'empty nest syndrome'. No, not really- I am enjoying both having my children home as well as seeing how they are growing up and conquering the adult world. I did hear remarks such as 'being a grown up sucks' and 'weekends are so very short'. All true!

Yesterday I went on a weeding spree in the yard, but today I was really lazy. After all, tomorrow I am going back to work 'for reals'. My love is making dinner. We are contemplating turning on the airco ~ the humidity is rising. We are enjoying some white wine. It's July.